Circle of... Existence

Existence... the rot!
It's a funny little thing
One second you're here
The next... you're not

Where did life go?
Every moment filled with glee?

Some things were good
Some things were bad
The rest I forgot
I just did what I should

So a typical day?
Was your life fulfilled?

I worked all day
Slept all night
The rest of the time...
Mostly wasted away

The money you earned...
It must have given you joy?

I paid so I could exist
I paid so others could too
The rest might as well have been nought
Into blur, into mist

So you struggled through life so that you could contine to live?
That's so bland
That's so basic
A boring tale to give!

It's what we humans do in our blunder
Live our lives
Wait for death
Never risking the former
Due to fear of the latter
Yet here it is and I wonder...

Did any of it really matter?

Identity

Sorry

I didn't mean to do it

But I did

But it wasn't me

Not really

Because it wasn't the me I want to be

It wasn't you?

That's your excuse?

Don't twist the truth 

It was you doing what you do

You'll never be who you want to be

I'm trying hard to change from me

I hate myself

Hate what I see

In the mirror, the man

He needs to die for a clean slate

Change is hard

Won't come easy 

Look at yourself more positively

There's no such thing as full rebirth

Take what you have reshape and mould

Reality is the key

Don't hate yourself destructively

We all have qualities good and bad

Nobody is perfect

No need to feel sad

Keep the love you have

The things that bring joy to your day

Break off what is bad

Let it rot and decay

No amount of money

Determination

Will 

Denial

Sacrifice

Will change you forever

You are who you are

Accept it

Its fact

Take the good with the bad